here go’s another Weekend, I have no idear what going to go on for the Weekend, I know I am going to spend it alone, I just don’t want to think about last weekend I just want things to get better for me, Well I looked at C myspace and I see that he added more girl’s ya I would have to say at 1st it did bug me but I have to look past that rigt now, I have  so much on my mind I have to Stop think about maybe should could of would of I really have to stop looking down a pone my self and Look at the biger pic of thing’s and I have to tell my self if he really loved me he would stayed with me but if he doesnt then  I just have to look a head of my self and look on, I know  it came to my self that its so hard  I have that feel like its the end of the World and it’s not I just have to look as I had a past and I was happy and I loved him so much and I still do but that has to change, I need to change as a person by holding on its not going to help me in any kind of way I have to think strongely about everything in life I just cant always be Sad well I am going to get sum Sleep I am So tired it’s almost 6 am Night